chapter 16

When I woke up today it was SO cold.. it was HORRIBLE. I was at Kristen's house around 7:30 am for the RPAC VOICE TEAM YARD SALE :D
I was there until like 9:20 and then I had to go to school for Mini Band Camp.. :P then I went back.

Nothing to do tonight -_- Kristen's cousins from Boca are coming down. POOP.

My mom the other day tells me "oh i sent an application for food stamps and medacaid for you and your dad" WOAH! what?!?! that was all that went through if you would of asked me a year ago.. if i would ever be eating off of food stamps.. i would of laughed, honestly.

I got my first C this year on my whole report card on my Chemistry Midterm. UGH Straight As and a C how retarded. It's been haunting me.


I'm sick of trying to "communicate" with Kelsey and Mariela. I cannot keep looking for acceptance I'll never have. I cannot believe I let it get to me so much, when at the end of the day all that matter is Kristen and I and our "love" for eachother. I hate saying things like that because it should not matter.

I need to find sponsers for my costumes and for the cruise for RPAC. I cannot wait until the upcoming Baby Faires I need money to pay for all this stuff.


I think I'm going to try to continue to update we will see how i do.


Monica.

kristen doesnt feel good.):

she said she wanted to run away that makes me sad

cause that means that she REALLY cant take it anymore

and she doesnt have a choice ):

i love her..

MOnica

Today was okay I guess. To be honest I don't even remember what happened. Oh yeah umm in 1st period I was really awake because I went to sleep like at 2.I had all my stuff done for my project.. Last night I spent the night fixing up the poweerpoint a little more and I was fixing my research paper too.We ended up not presenting again.. Instead we had a speaker the trust counselor she's really cool she's jamaican umm.. Well she was talking about drugs and alcohol and stuff. So we watched 2 videos one of smoking and another on alcohol and they were pretty nastyy. Umm next class again she's going to be our speaker again. 3rd pretty fun actually but i left my  global warming paper here at home soo I didn't get a grade for it.. And it sucks I was the only one thatdid it in class the day we watched the video.. Cus everybody else was going crazy cus we had a sub.. Ugh! Soo lunch was okay I guess I had pizza crust and a cookies n creamm bar ): I was pretty pissed at myself.. But lets not talk about that. 5th period I spent almost half of class running around the school getting release forms for all her even day students because she is going to show a rated R movie next class and she needs the parents permission and if they can't see it they get sent out of class that sucks.. Well anywayy umm the way homee was a litttle rough because I felt sick to my stomach all the way home and when I got homee I ate something and I went to sleeeeep... til 6:30. My pooor baby has been feeling bad for the last day or twoo and I feel soo bad because I haven't bene able to help her or be there for her. I miss her a lot though I really wanted to talk to her all day I knew I cudnt cus she had to sleeeeep. I hope she gets better soon.

monicaaa

(Ughh I can't stop thinkin about that now I don't want sexual things to be the way that she thinks I'm showing her I lovee her. Ahhh I don't know what to do.)